Holmestice and writing

[blue_eyed_1987]

holmestice signups are open again! :D



I adore Holmestice, I always have, but I'm having a lot of anxiety about writing right now. I've had to give up on my teen wolf exchange fic (I've asked to basically be a pinch-hitter, so am waiting for the mod to get back to me), and while I know what I want to write about for my uni_merlin, getting the words down is hard.

I also have a couple of other things I want to write (my danny/stiles teen wolf fic, a touch starved!bruce/clint avengers fic, and my 5644133 wips that are languishing in my folder). These are more tempting than the things I have deadlines for. The less said about kink_bingo the better.

This will be the last Holmestice, unless some people step forward to take over. I'm tempted, but I'm also aware that I get anxious enough trying to do anything with merlingwainebar. But I'm wondering if I'll do better with a well organised comm that is popular and just taking over the reigns?

I have no idea what to do, to be honest. I am tempted just to leave it and actually finish some of the ideas I've got, but volunteering to help out is more tempting.

Another thing that I'm aware of is I seem to have issues writing without some hand-holding? Like, I'll get about 1k in then I'll freak out and convince myself it could be better and then re-write those 1k until I either sign up for something or just give up. I have no idea if that's normal or if I'm really needy? I'm going to try and get through the next couple of fics and not ask for help until I need it betad, and see how that goes. Maybe I'll get the confidence I need to able to actually finish things that don't have a looming deadline *crosses fingers*


In other news I made 12 mini vanilla cheesecakes, 12 mini chocolate cheesecakes, a dozen chocolate truffles today, and I'm doing a full roast *collapses*

And I'm back in work tomorrow *weeps*